April 4, 2016

"Eating Bull" May Be Fictional, but Sadly the Fat-Shaming It Depicts Is Not: a guest post by Carrie Rubin

Eating Bull May Be Fictional, but Sadly the Fat-Shaming It Depicts Is Not
by Carrie Rubin

“There’s not a day goes by I don’t know I’m fat, because no one will let me forget it.”

I heard the above sentence from a tearful, severely overweight teenager several years ago in my clinic. The words haven’t left me since. In fact, they’re part of what led me to make an overweight fifteen-year-old boy the protagonist in Eating Bull. That, along with the research I’ve done over the years on overweight/obesity, went into Jeremy’s characterization.

I gained further insight into the emotional toll of obesity after attending a seminar led by overweight public health practitioners. The focus of the meeting was to highlight the frequent fat-shaming that goes on in our society—including from the healthcare industry—and to shift the onus from weight loss to size acceptance.

Though I’m not ready to write off weight loss as a goal, the seminar was eye-opening, and it made me reevaluate some of my thinking. Although I’d already written Eating Bull when I attended, I made some changes to my protagonist’s characterization as a result, including how he is treated by a less-than-supportive ER nurse.

It is not an overstatement to say I was appalled by the tales these speakers told, tales of the shaming they experience on a regular basis (at least here in the U.S.). The horrible things complete strangers say to them. The horrible things healthcare providers say to them. The horrible things family members say to them.

So I knew if I wanted to recreate this inescapable cloud of shaming for my hero, I’d have to make his life hell. He’s fatherless with an overworked and often absent mother, verbally abused by his agoraphobic grandfather, and bullied in school for his weight. Plus, he has little in the way of coping strategies other than to get lost in his online game and eat.

As if that wasn’t bad enough, I added a serial killer. Because, you know, first and foremost Eating Bull is a thriller, and in a thriller, horrible things must be heaped upon our protagonists, at least until they can stand up and fight on their own.

Writing about my character’s pain wasn’t easy, and I doubt it will be easy to read. Sitting in that seminar wasn’t easy either. But it got those of us who attended thinking, and it got us recognizing our own responsibilities in the issue.

So I’m sorry I put you through the ringer, Jeremy. I hope you’ll forgive me. Maybe between the two of us, we can get you to a happier place.

Carrie Rubin is a physician and public health advocate. In addition to writing medical thrillers, she maintains a humor blog at www.carrierubin.com. She lives in Ohio with her husband and two sons. Her novels include "Eating Bull" and "The Seneca Scourge." 

Twitter: @carrie_rubin
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/carrierubinauthor


  1. As a 47 year old who has struggled with obesity for the past 20 years, I can certainly relate to this. I have received the stares and looks of disdain, have been called fat by kids at my sons' school (once shouted from a bus window, a few times, said to my son in a mean way, "Your mom is fat."), and emotionally abused about it by my ex-husband. Yes, weight loss is important. But as Carrie said, a shift to size acceptance is important...because no one is encouraged to lose weight by fat shaming. Believe me, I can testify to that. Only by feeling good about yourself, despite your looks, can a person find the motivation to tackle losing weight and adopting a healthy lifestyle.

    Thanks for this great article. I've added "Eating Bull" to my wishlist.

    1. "Only by feeling good about yourself, despite your looks, can a person find the motivation to tackle losing weight and adopting a healthy lifestyle."---Yes, very well said! That's the take-home message put out by the seminar I attended as well. Body-shaming occurs far too frequently, and the subject doesn't get the attention it deserves.

  2. Thank you for hosting me today. Much appreciated!